Real Life

I’ve been back from WA for about a week now. Back to real life which lacks the protection of the bubble I was encompassed by in WA. It was, in two very opposing ways, the most amazing and crushing experience of my life. One thing is certain, I will never forget any moment of it.

While it continues to be the most difficult thing I have faced in life, I am certain and firm that I have been the recipient of countless blessings. Heavenly Father has showered our family with tender mercies that persist in comforting us. We received every opportunity to create memories, express feelings and say our good byes. And when Mom passed away, we were there holding not only her hands, but each others’. I am constantly reminded that many people do not have that opportunity. I can’t imagine the heart ache of those who lose loved ones suddenly. That must be so much more difficult. Someone remind me to post pictures from the funeral later. More than those I’m attaching here. It was a BEAUTIFUL service. My Mom, in true-to-herself fashion, made all the arrangements in advance. She asked each of the children to speak, which was daunting at first, but turned out to be a final gift from Mom. I’ll post more about that too.

For now, I take the small things that can bring such a big smile to my face.

This little man is pure marshmallow. He is Momma’s boy and I wouldn’t have it any other way. He makes me feel great when I walk in the room and he lights up and starts to wiggle and squirm uncontrollably. When we embrace he buries his head in me and bites down HARD on my shoulder. The tiny teeth marks left behind remind me how very much he cares.